Well I am thoroughly embarrassed at the lapse in my postings. I’m ashamed and disappointed in myself that I let the days, weeks and almost months go by without checking-in. Long story short, I went on a cruise (it was wonderful), came back, got sick (really sick, the flu was a bitch) and I am just now getting back to normal – a whole two months later.
While on this self-imposed hiatus, I would ignore email notifications to moderate comments. I wasn’t keeping up with the Ravens, there was too much drama and negative news (I refuse to blog about the recent Ravens news that I saw on TMZ). I was cold (damn polar vortex) and I hate, I mean really, REALLY HATE being cold. For this time, I didn’t give a damn about too much. I can admit I was skating by and just doing the bare minimum when it came to everything. I kept saying to myself, I need to get back on the grind. The same way I stopped posting, I also fell off when it came to exercising, maintaining my weight, posting positive messages and completing my books.
And then I realized, when a tree falls in the forest does it make a sound. Did anybody notice or care? The comments requiring moderation were spam, my jeans still fit because they have entirely too much spandex and I’d become too accustomed to laying on my sofa with the remote, a drink and snack.
If I didn’t take control of my life, if I didn’t consciously follow my dreams, life would continue to pass me by. In what felt like the blink of an eye, it was no longer February but now April and I hadn’t actively moved towards my goal of having a relevent lifestyle blog about the things I love or any of my other goals.
Today is a new day. I have reaffirmed that I will move into the direction of my goals every day. Time flies when you’re having fun and that’s wonderful. But I just never want to look back again and regrettingly wonder where the time went.